To be honest, not a lot has changed, and this was something everyone was expecting... But we are now fully doing online learning (until at least the 2nd of November). Since the start of the semester we were edging towards this: lectures were basically put online immediately but we were supposed to still be going in for practical classes, in smaller groups. But due to the COVID19 situation and Slovakia's case numbers rising on the daily, the uni let us all know yesterday that we will be distance learning for at least the next two weeks. It's definitely necessary as we did have some cases at the school, and we are a pretty small school (all things considered), so it's the smart and safe thing to do. And we were also one of the last universities to fully close in the country, so we held out a little longer and at least got a few more practicals in than some other students.
That being said... It kind of sucks. I don't want to sound ungrateful or anything like that, again, this is the right thing to do given the circumstances!! But I haven't quite been able to ward off the drop in motivation and wee bit of depression (not helped by the rain the last few days) as the realization settled in over the last 2 days that, likely for the next few months, we won't actually be in school.
I've always been quite good at learning online and teaching myself stuff. I actually like reading and learning out of a book, or by watching videos. But still, it is notably harder to concentrate, focus and feel comfortable asking questions in online lectures. I'm sure everyone else who has had to do online learning will relate to this struggle. And even worse is the practicals... Because, well, it's impossible to do a practical that's not practical. Our professors have been so kind and accommodating, and are trying really hard which helps a lot! But there's still a sinking feeling in my stomach when I think about the lab time we're missing out on, and the hands on practise. It's even more frustrating because there's really not a lot we can do about it. Apart from wearing masks, social distancing, sanitising our hands often and quarantining when sick. And pray that the second wave isn't as bad as the first, and goes away quickly, even though it's really hard to find consistent reports or predictions about what its doing or what will happen so you just get really stressed and grind your teeth and can't sleep. You know the drill.
Still, lectures are still really interesting and good, even though we're still reviewing a lot of things in certain classes. I've still been liking school and learning all this stuff. I'm just trying to be thankful we're in first year, and not one of the later ones... I think missing out on practicals would be worse and worse the further up the years you are. Tomorrow we only have Latin in the afternoon, and I'm meeting my chemistry lab partner in the morning to do our report for the titration practical we did last week. Other than that, I think it's going to be a day for me to catch up on some readings I've fallen a bit behind on, and review some notes.
In other news, I made a pretty fantastic tomato soup yesterday, from fresh tomatoes! So that was a nice comfort dinner that I want to make again. I've been riding quite a lot, and Dobrava is so lovely, and I couldn't be happier about being able to ride and spend time with horses again. It is comforting to have realised that not a lot has changed in the last few years that I haven't been able to be around horses. I was worried that I might have forgotten everything or lost the spark or just plain suck at it. But I don't feel that way at all, and as cheesy as it sounds, I feel quite complete in that regard. Now I'm just desperate to win the lottery so I can buy her xD typical of me to fall in love with the first horse I saw hahaha literally nothing changes ever
I think that's basically everything. Not that much going on really... But wanted to write a little bit. If you're reading this and got this far, I hope you're well. If I know you, I miss you (unless I don't). If I don't know you, hi! welcome to the blog, please enjoy your stay! And if you're my Connor, I love you :) x